I tried to think logically. Calmly. But my mind wasn’t co-operating.
Because at that precise moment, nothing in my life was logical.
I was standing in the dugout watching my team – Manchester City Women – take on Liverpool Ladies in the FA Women’s Super League. It was the team’s first game in the WSL. And the first time I had ever managed a side at that level of competition.
I didn’t feel prepared for it. And I wasn’t prepared for what came with it, either.
I’d coached a lot of 11-a-side academy games at City, so I was comfortable with the systems. I’d done my homework on Liverpool, too. But, as soon as I walked into Halton Stadium and saw the cameras, I realised that this was different.
The game was being shown live on television. But before it even kicked off, I was looking straight down the lens of a camera for my first pre-match interview.
Illogical. Uncomfortable. If I’m totally honest, the majority of the day was a pretty unpleasant experience.